So I sit here and listen to classical pop jazz funk classical crazy drums. It is so wonderful to be able to do something naturally and not ever feel like it's work. Out of school I can finally be myself, the research that I do comes about as natural as eating (and equally as rewarding). 

Then every once in a while you run into something that reminds you just how far you get to go because you see a light barely lit at the end of the valley. You get excited and profoundly moved at the same time, but yet you don't move at all. You stand still, for the one second you look into the future. 

Check out  James Blake's rendition of A Case of You by Joni Mitchell and follow it with Jeff Buckley's version of Hallelujah and you'll get here quickly. 


Here- Kristin

I have to apologize at this point, I'm just getting used to the concept of blogging. At first I fought the idea almost as much as I fought facebook... but I believe I was more irritated by the people that misused the concept rather than the concept itself. 
So. I'm personally putting together an EP. This, or I suppose the overall idea of any sort of KC CD, has been on my mind since I was a little girl. One of those to-do dreams that remain from childhood and are actually necessary to implement when the time comes. All I can say is I'm excited and more than ready.

There are other things on my mind, however, before focusing 100% on the EP. I have been looking for a piano. Where? Sketchy-ass craigslist. Why? Must... play... piano...
I'd like to think that any piano can be made to sound good with the right hands. I've worked on/with everything and I definitely didn't grow up on anything but an old upright. I appreciate every piano and touch it with caring hands. So why the F#%^ does everyone else look at like a piece of furniture? They should be giving me the freaking thing if they know how much I use it and know (by looking at my half-ass dress and tennis shoes) I have very little floating around for any investment. 

So I guess my question for this blog and "debatable-moral-thing" is --> At what point do you think about the big picture/world as a whole? Is this the point that you start investing in other ideas/concepts or do givers just give from the beginning and takers take into the grave?
How much I never knew about the the varied differences between being selfless and selfish...

 

"Then ask the composer of music, he certainly should know. But the composer, absorbed in the heat of composition, is caught in the web of his own musical thought and cares neither to analyze his own mental processes, nor their product. To him the question, "What is Music?" would seem the height of foolishness, for it is part and parcel of his existence. From youth up the inner creative urge has swept him on regardless of any question as to the essential nature of the art to which all his waking thoughts are dedicated."
- William Arms fisher in his article, "What is Music?"

Ok. I'm pretty sure I have an extreme youtube addiction. I try to stay away from my own channel (which immediately makes me hyperventilate and want to redo all the videos) but I can't stop finding others that are completely fascinating. 

Sometimes it feels like your relearning things that you've already learned before... like the deja vous of the learning process.

I don't believe in going backwards. And going around in circles isn't so bad. Every time steps are retraced something new happens and something else is seen that wasn't seen the first time around.

Ok, now how does this tie in to my music? I wrote when I was very young and then wrote whenever I got a chance to take a break from practicing classical music. Composition was always my breath of fresh air, and poetry somehow just fit its way in there. Now I am fully and rapidly breathing. Like I was when I was the little girl, but only in top speed- everything I've learned on my own is coming back to me- my own ear is rejuvenated.